Good Vibrations

I always feel so strange after masturbating...like a tensed up bundle of nerves. If I don't stay tense, I will get depressed, and I don't want that. But I don't want tense either. So I'm going to try some relaxation breathing. If that doesn't work, I'll go smoke.
To be honest, it is probably not just sexual tension. I can feel all hte days tension coming back and climbing on board. My big insecurity right now is that I haven't orgasmed. But it's a generouse insecurity, it makes room for all my other worries too.
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But, anywho, for tonights report. Two very intense pre-orgasms...once again stalled by my thinking about them to much. But what the hell. Maybe I'll get a little further each time...
Holding my electric bvibrator to my face felt good and distracted me enough to get me pretty far along. It was nice. Also, if you hold it on your nose, you sneeze.
I'm trying to get more comfortable with my pussy, so I tasted my moisture, mixed with lube. Kinda sweet and salty.

Decision I've made today: Work on orgasm during self love, just have fun with sex.